After a period of long and agonizing soul searching, I came to the conclusion that my current situation was no longer in my best interest. Too many obstacles that had always been there that I thought I could handle such as:

• living 30+ minutes away from my daughter’s school (and driving her back and forth on my weeks)
• living 30+ minutes away from work (had to drive back up after driving her down and do it all again at night)
• financial situation was less than stellar (and just wasn’t looking up)
• differing opinions about raising our children (uhhhhh biggie!)
• differing opinions about our futures and current situations (I wanted to look at the bright side, he said I saw changing him as a project)
• his custody battle and his ex-wife who tried everything to make our lives miserable (she was every bit as evil as he told me she was - I naively didn’t believe him on that one and found out the hard way)
• his mom in the nursing home and dealing with everything that involved (just tons of overall stress)
• did I mention the financial strain?

The biggest thing standing in our way being the distance (I left to take her to school at 6:30 am and sometimes didn’t get home until 6:30-9:00 at night, depending on if she had any extracurricular activities that night.)

It just got to be too much.

My husband told me I wouldn’t be able to handle it before we got married but I disagreed with him. I felt I could handle anything as long as I was with him. I wanted it to work.

It was not to be…

I ended up stressed, tired, not feeling up to anything, unmotivated and a mere shell of myself.

He was right. I couldn’t handle it.

I won’t bash him because that’s not what I’m about. Let’s just say we were better off apart.

To make a long story short, I’m thankful for the experience and what it taught me about overextending one’s self and the resulting repercussions.

Realizing the Title of Super Mom is NOT Something I Can Achieve

I realized that when I tried to be everything to everyone, I ended up nothing to myself.

It’s time to move on and redefine my life.

There are other circumstances that I can’t mention here now that are also weighing on me heavily but I know I will get through it.

It’s time to focus on finding myself (actually it inspired a book title that I started on while I didn’t have Internet which is a good thing!)

I’ve been much more focused lately (as much as I can be given the circumstances.)

Things Sometimes Just Work Out

My daughter’s friend’s mom and I became friends through a couple of times of hanging out with the kids. She mentioned that I always have a place to stay and the time was right, so I took her up on it.

It’s been a blessing to both of us because she’s a single mom with 3 kids. I can help her out a bit with housework, cooking, giving her a breather she so deserves, etc…

The funny thing about it is that she is interested in “motivational stuff” and would like to help women/teens with low self-esteem, etc… just like me!

Labor Day Had a Different Meaning for Me!

Things were sailing along, pretty smoothly, and then all you know what broke loose. Her youngest kept complaining of a stomach ache and it ended up her appendix burst and she required surgery. That was on Friday and she hasn’t been home since. I’ve been holding down the fort since. Lots going on.

I’ve also been helping my son and running him back and forth to work (back to that 30 minute thing) and that added more craziness to the weekend.

Then, yesterday, my daughter’s friend, who is a juvenile diabetic, woke up feeling really sick and her blood sugar and keytones were really screwed up. Her poor mom was going nuts up at the hospital, on the phone with her, trying to figure everything out. She finally felt better and it regulated itself. (after she went to a barbecue with us and wasn’t allowed to eat - poor thing!)

Oh, yeah, and did I mention her computer crashed? No hard drive detected…

So, as I said, Labor Day weekend was a WORKING weekend for me! I need to go back to work to get some “west and weewaxation” huhuhuhuh (ok, I couldn’t resist the Elmer Fudd impersonation…)

So, there it is in a nutshell…

Life sometimes throws us a curve ball. It’s up to us to decide it we try to catch it or let it hit us upside the head! I choose to catch it and toss it right back.

I know I’ll be alright. In fact, I’m going to thrive!

It’s all a matter of using what’s between your two ears in the right way.

And I’ll be doing that… One day at a time.

I’ve had some people email me, asking how you can help.

If you’re so inclined, you can always buy my book (link at the top right - “Got Gratitude?”) or you can always donate to the site (there’s a PayPal donate button) because the cost is going to be tough to handle for a while but I’m hoping I can work through it!

The other thing… Encouragement helps! LOL

I may be One Motivational Mama, but sling enough doody at me and sometimes even I forget to duck!

Oh yeah… It’s good to be back!