My Self-Imposed Rainy Day

28 Jan

Posted by Angie as Gratitude, Law of Attraction, Mindset, Personal Growth

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Sometimes I wish I could “practice what I preach.”

I KNOW that when I’m having a bad day and I let it escalate, there’s only going to be more of what I’m resisting.

Yes, I know that.

Unfortunately, yesterday, I chose not to pay attention.

All I can say is, “Holy crap, I had a bad day!”

My boss was even beside himself with me. I think his exact words were, “I can feel your frustration, and I’m not doing anything to help, standing here thinking, ‘I wish she’d just shut up, I’ve got work to do.’”

You have to know my boss… He was joking, but probably really thinking that… Did I mention he really IS the best boss in the world? (Yes, I have to embrace that bright side.) I will write more about him another time!

Seriously… It started with my van not starting the night before. My boss jumped it and let me borrow a trickle charger. I put it on that night and it fired right up. I tried it first thing yesterday morning and it started up, and I let it run a while. Danielle wasn’t ready to go and I didn’t want to let it run for about 20 minutes more, so I shut it off.

You guessed it…

It wouldn’t start when I tried it again.

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!

She had a game, and can’t play if she’s tardy (the 2 minutes she was tardy last week and didn’t get to play was proof of that) so I didn’t want her to miss another game.

So, I hooked it back up to the trickle charger, hoping it would give that baby enough juice to start.

Nope.
Nada.
Nuttin’ honey.

Fortunately, the neighbor came out and jumped it to get it started. I hoped that the drive to work was enough to keep it charged. It has done this before, but usually if I drive it for a while, it gets recharged.

So, I get to work, frustrated, and my desk is piled up with cases to call on. And one thing after another starts getting under my skin. To the point that I was in tears from frustration.

I KNOW better.

I realize what I’m doing.

But I just couldn’t help myself!

Sheesh!

I guess we all let ourselves get in overwhelm mode from time to time.

I’ve written about it before.

I know you’re thinking, “Why doesn’t she just buy a battery?” Well, if I had the extra money, I would! I’m planning on trading off the van when I get my tax refund, so I was hoping to not put any more money into it.

It’s been a struggle financially since I moved out, especially recently, and I don’t make anything off of this site (maybe one of these days I will) so robbing Peter to pay Paul has been the norm lately.

Hence my frustration.

Sometimes, even when you realize what you’re doing, something just makes you do it anyway.

Back to the drawing board…

I am human.

I get stuck.

But I also know that you start where you are today and move forward.

And that’s today’s mission.